Wow the storms last night were crazy. It seemed like the thunder was right over my house for hours. It affected my dreams for sure. Now we are on to noontime storms. It’s nearly black outside and it feels like everything is underwater: slow, shifting strangely and slightly unreal. I have been carefully focusing all morning on the the rush of water washing all the negativity of the past away. On water that makes things grow, that makes me stronger, that brings change and cleanses. I would, I suspect, be a much diffrent person if I could meditate like this every morning. And I guess there’s no reason I can’t, though I know myself well enough to know that I won’t. But today it was good.
The thunder is still rumbling, moving closer again. I have eaten a healthy lunch. I have made a simple, reasonable to-do list for the day. I have A History of Violence on in the background (yes, much like A Walk on the Moon, this is a good movie, but probably most re-watched for the insanely hot Viggo sex scenes). Today will be a good day. As will tomorrow. And all the rest of the days. Even the ones I forget to look for the goodness in. I will keep in my heart the best parts of the best days and try to remember to that every day has the possibility of those wonderful moments.