Can't get rid of my headache. Am now thinking of removing my head. Had movie "date" that fell through, which is probably for the best. Have sacked my to-do list for the evening and am going to fuck off for the rest of the evening even if I feel guilty about it tomorrow. Honestly, it's like after a weekend of fucking off my brain has just shut down.
The lightning outside seems to be coming for me. It's like it's moving right toward me. Ooh, there's the thunder. Maybe I should go stand outside.
Seriously though, I am sort of beating myself up for fucking off, but it's actually part of O:BNM. I'm not really fucking off. I'm taking time to relax and try and deal with where I am at and everything from the past couple months. It's true. If only I could just convince myself.
Oooooh, lightning is making the sky purple. Must go look. Then maybe I will read a book or something so I can say tomorrow that I did something besides watch re-runs on TV.