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If you’re thinking about breaking my heart


I had the iPod on shuffle on the way into work, here’s what it gave me:

Cory Branan’s “Crackerjack Heart”
Steve Earle’s “I Thought You should Know”
Todd Snider’s “Lonely Girl”
Jimmie Dale Gilmore’s “Headed for a Fall”
Whiskeytown’s “Sit Up and Listen to the Radio”
Matthew Ryan’s “Devastation”

Which has left me feeling oddly melancholy and wondering once again, in a tin hat, crazy lady sort of way, if the old iPod isn’t trying to send me some message. The message of today would apparently be, “Yes, you destined to be lonely.” Which I totally reject, so now I’m wondering if I shouldn’t try and take these songs, in this order, and write a short story around them.

We’re having an odd second spring here. All the trees that turned black or brown in the hard frost a couple weeks ago are finally showing signs of life again–they are covered in those soft greenish, reddish, sort of chartruese, not quite yellow fuzzy bed of new leaves. But they are pushing in under the dead black or brown leaves, giving the whole thing and weird sort of layered look. It makes me happy though, I was worried the trees wouldn’t recover. I should have known better, Tennessee is verdant to say the least.

I have a sudden urge to start wearing drawstring pants and sandals all the time. I don’t know what that’s about. All the hippies at both my jobs?

Speaking of jobs, funny story: At my day job, coworker A (who needs nickname, hmmm) wasn’t in the office at all yesterday, as he was in legislative sessions. So he called me often to get info for him or help him out with something. Fine, no trouble at all. I get to restaurant last night, and right after we open, I get a call for a take-out order, and it’s, you guessed it, coworker A! He recognized my voice on the phone and was all apologetic. “I feel weird asking you for food, after everything else you do during the day.” Heee! I assured him I was glad to be helpful on all fronts.

Both jobs continue to be pretty awesome. I don’t believe I’ve ever liked a single job as much as I like either of my jobs. I feel pretty lucky to have them both. Now if only they paid more for less hours. 🙂

Thanks so so so much to the anonymous benefactor who filled in my paid time here, so I have all my icons back. You are made of awesome. I guess I better go find some more awesome icons so I can do you justice for your gift.

And now I work.

Author: Ajax Bell

Seattle author. Stops to smell the flowers. Amateur nerd (I wanna go pro but I haven't found anyone to pay me). Humble hippo enthusiast. queer/bi. they/them.

4 thoughts on “If you’re thinking about breaking my heart

  1. I have a sudden urge to start wearing drawstring pants and sandals all the time. Ahm ,ewww?!?! I think that is not the best look for you. For people like us, that is for home wear only.

  2. Well I was thinking something like this, not the creepy PNW hippie ones.

  3. Okay, those are totally acceptable. 🙂

  4. “I feel weird asking you for food, after everything else you do during the day.”

    Hee! That is so cute. 😀

    Those pants are also cute. Go hippie fashion go!

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