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Groundhog day


I woke up about 5 am on Friday and saw that it had snowed. I didn’t have my glasses on and at first I thought it had snowed a lot. Got up, got glasses, closer inspection revealed only an inch or two of snow. Sure, more than the powered sugar dusting I was expecting, but not big deal. By the time I went to work at 10:30 the roads were clear. Cleaning off my car was still a pain in the ass, but the roads were good. When I came home that night snow was only left where there was grass, everything else was clear and dry. By midday yesterday it was pretty much entirely gone, except in tiny, tiny pockets that stayed in shadow all day.

This morning I woke up around 7 am, had a brief mental struggle where I tried to figure out what day it was, opened my eyes and saw snow again. I literally thought, for half a second, “Man, this isn’t the day I want to keep reliving until I get it right. Nothing happened today,” until I figured out it was actually Sunday and not Friday all over again. And this time it is the powered sugar dusting I expected, already almost completely gone and it’s not yet noon.

I really can’t think of a day I’d re-live. Maybe that early autumn day at the beach at Sitges, Spain. Or perhaps some hideously crappy day over again until I made it good? Hmm, I don’t know.

I long for spring. Ache for it. Like a lover long since shipped out to see, whose return I am still unsure of. It seems spring will never arrive, though I know it must because if it doesn’t, well, I wouldn’t know what to do with myself.

Author: Ajax Bell

Seattle author. Stops to smell the flowers. Amateur nerd (I wanna go pro but I haven't found anyone to pay me). Humble hippo enthusiast. queer/bi. they/them.

9 thoughts on “Groundhog day

  1. Your italics tag broke. You’re so lucky that you have pleasant snow. Here we’ve had two feet of snow for about 10 days and every day it’s in single digits without winchill and in negative double digits with the windchill and sooooo windy. And I have to walk more than a mile unprotected by buildings every day for class. That’s what I get for being a film major and having classes in the beautiful new performing arts center that’s at the complete opposite end of campus from my dorm.

  2. See, not to sound contrary or anything, but I don’t feel lucky about the snow. Because I chose to live in a more moderate climate, so any snow feels like a pain in my ass. Although lately it’s cold, cold temps that bother me, the snow seems ancillary in my general winter woes.

    I’m already imagining spending next winter at the equator, I can’t even comprehend being a place where they have snow like you do. I’d probably never leave the house. Either starve to death or find someone to take care small necessities for me.

  3. I’d love snow like yours, but it’s so not what you signed up for when you moved! Not fair, Mother Nature.

    I also ache for spring. Or at least temperatures that aren’t hovering around 0. Freezing sounds blessedly warm right now. However, I’m making do by drinking tea and wrapping myself in my comforter on the couch. Errands can wait.

  4. Thankfully it’s not as cold here as it there, but still I often find myself thinking, “if it’d just stay above 35, I’d be fine.” This low 20s and below shit is just not on. Plus you know how I obsessively check the weather reports? Well, it makes it WAY worse when I daily see things like this:

    Average High: 48°F
    Last Year’s High: 56°F
    Today’s High: 26 °F

    Dear weather, WTF? Why am I getting temperatures HALF of this? Kindly fuck right off into spring.

  5. Okay, see? This makes me laugh. Because I woke up this morning around 6:00am, all ready to get dressed for work, thinking it was Friday and at least I had the weekend to look forward to….


  6. It’s warmer in Seattle and Tacoma than Nashville right now, weirdly enough. That’s just sick and wrong, really. Also, I’m done with winter now, too. I’m so ready for spring I can practically taste it.

  7. Oh yuck! That’s like waking up on Monday and thinking it’s Saturday! Terrible.

  8. It’s actually been warmer up there for weeks! Seriously it feels like some sort of punishment for it to be this cold down here when y’all are having a normal winter (well minus the insane wind storm and the freak couple weeks of snow!!)

    Hopefully you’ll get that traditionally really nice week in mid- or late February, where you can pretend it’s spring for a bit before the March rains come!

  9. When spring finally comes, it will be so awesome! 😀

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